2012 was...

...my most PASSIONATE year!

Of course, there were Ups and Downs...the Rollercoaster of Life. But Alhamdulillah, this year I really feel complete, focused, productive, and very much enjoying my life...to the fullest! :D

Ups :

my online Boutique :D

Downs :

My babies are my everything. They are my world, my dreams, my inspirations, my life....If something happened to them, it's like my world is taken away from me or like stripping off my soul from my body. And my very Low moments was when Agasha get Dehydrated and when we Lost him two days before New Year. Hopefully there won't be any terrifying moments happened in 2013 and the years after...Amin.

How is your Ups and Downs, Dear? Hopefully what we had in 2012 can be a good ammo to face what's await in 2013...Amin :)

I lost my Baby Boy

...Hugs my Angels sooo tight...

Oh my God, two days before New Year, and I've got a very VALUABLE lesson. I underlined the word 'very' because it was something that gave huge impact especially for me.

We were at the Mall, at a big Toys Shop, I was busy with Alicia and her Doll selections, everybody was busy with their...things. I was assuming that my baby boy was with one of us, and obviously everybody thought the same about him....that-somebody-is-keeping-an-eye-on-Agasha.....And the next thing we knew, we lost him!

Only God know how I felt, what was inside my head, how I running around searched for him with blurry vision, how trembling my hands was that is so difficult for me just to push a button on my cell phone so that I can show the security guard my baby's picture when reported of my missing child.........only God knows.

Then, when he asked me what outfit that my baby wears, and I answered "Jeans!", like he understand how dying I was he straight away told me to go to the Information booth on the Ground fl. immediately because it was already informed throughout the speaker (thank you Sir, may God Blessed you the rest of your life, Amin). Unexplainable how I could run that far and that fast with my plus size figure, but I do believe this is what you called a Mother Instinct. 

Alhamdulillah, I can hug my baby again. I kiss him, I hold him tight, I apologized to him over and over again....tears all over me. I cried of fear, I cried of relieved, I cried of regret, I cried of happy, I cried of everything. All I know, I have my baby back.......

It was a devastating moment in my life...the worst! God, please don't let me feel it again, I got the lesson.....yes, I surely do got the lesson! There was no blame put on someone's name. It was purely the Adults fault. My failure, as a parent....*sigh. ALWAYS make sure I know precisely about my children's supervision. NEVER think that someone will automatically keep an eye on my babies! Whatever it is, Parents responsible to their Children!

Mommy is holding you tight now my dear Agasha...

Kiss and hugs your Children everyday,every minute, every second, every breath of your life...please!

New Year Anxiety

Hi my Dearest Angels...Mommy's Sweetest Angels... :)

Here we are. Ready to let go a Year away...and ready to welcoming a Year to come. Time really does fly so fast. One second we are celebrating the coming of a brand New Year, new Dreams, new Wishes, new Hopes...the next second, we already preparing for another New Year...again! Sometimes, I don't even noticed what has had happened in this 12 passed months....how stunned!

You know, Dear...actually 12 months is quite a long time to passed. There are quite a lot of Time for some Actions, some Dramas, some Clean-ups, some Improvements, etc. BUT, in the end of the year, we always complaining of the same old crap : Not enough time!

Well.....do you think so? Do you think 365-days-of-Blessing are not enough? Do you think that 8,760 hours are not PLENTY enough to do something, let's say...Good ('Useful' is for the Intermediate level, if you know what I mean)??? Wow, something is definitely wrong here, and it is not about the time.

I used to be the person that said, "What!?! New Year again?! Darn! I even didn't got the chance to...". Oh yes, blamed it to the lack of time, blamed it to how short this year is, bla bla bla....But you know what, 365 days will always be 365-of-days...won't ever change, except for The Leap Year and it's only 1 extra day. So, the only thing that should be change is.....Me! Or you or we or whoever that person who is still feel that The Time Is Not Enough!

I've changed my mindset, set the arrow on me, and start to manage my plans for the year. And whatever happened in the end of the year, I can trace it down and know how to fix it. Alhamdulillah, now I can be so much easy facing the New Year's euphoria. We the one who knew our strenght, our capability, our passion...we the one who knew well of what we wanted and what we want NOT! So whatever you setting up or planning for the new upcoming year...please, consider all of that. And you have a List that is make sense...for you of course ;)

QOTD

Evening, Dearest Angels....

You know Angels, we always have that capability to be a better person. It's just a matter of whether we Willing to...or not. And if you are in doubts, you should read this....

POTD

Hi there Dear....

Last night when I browsed at some knick-knacks online shops, suddenly I have these cute ideas...and it has something to do with burlap....yup, BURLAP! A rather uncommon type of fabric to use other than sack, but surprisingly when I typed BURLAP and clicked Search on Google Images...Wow! Beautiful stuff and ideas popped on my monitor. Some of them was pinned on my Pinterest board, but I'm still gonna share some of my favourites here...

If you want to experiment using Burlap, what will you make? Kindly share it with Mommy, I love to read it ;)

Take care my Dearest Angels... :*

QOTD

"Sometimes the Smallest everyday Moments 
Lead to the Biggest Discoveries"

-Creative Income Blog-

Into The Blues

Morning, Dear.....How are you guys doing? Hope everything is good and smooth ;)

I really really need some mood injection here, I mean like Super seriously need it! Well, nothing bad going on or something upsetting...nope, none. In the contrary, I'm in the process of losing weight --it's my 2nd week and I lose 2 kilos yeay for me-- and am about to start a shop...so I'm so exciteddd!

BUT, Mommy is over excited now Mommy is got overwhelmed with it. Yup, when you sooo excited of something, you had so much plans and ideas in your head...and suddenly you just don't know where to start and get anxious about all that...................Oopsy! That's exactly what had hit me on the last three days :( 

Seriously, I became grumpy and moody and felt like having an anxiety disorder...so low.

This morning, I said to your Daddy "I thing I'm on my lowest point of my mood level"....And your Dad just hug me and kiss me and gave me that 'Everything will be fine, Honey' rub in the back, and I feel oh soooo relieve... :)

Sometimes, all we need is just expressing what's in your heart and mind.....and releasing some of that heavy burden on your back. There is limit in every person.

Have a wonderful weekend my Sweet Lollipops..... I Love You guys :*