Deal With It, Please...!!!

.......

You know, there are some people out there that really really giving me hard times and tainting my positive energy. Look Sweety, we all have s**t things in our life, let's just deal with our own things and respect others lives. Don't pushed too hard for attentions....really Dear, we are busy with our own s**t. Unless you've also lost your Mom, must deal with the reality that came afterward with your Dad, your new family members, your siblings, etc. Realising that you're getting more distance with your own family, seeing your Dad is getting old and misses his grandchildren, understand that in his heart he's feeling lonely...and as his daughter you can do nothing....Then, knowing that slowly you loosing your Identity after marriage, only known as 'a Wife', 'a Mother', or 'an in-law'. You crafting as a therapy, as a distraction, and also helps you feel 'present'. Last but not least, you feel s**tty with all that (and honey, the List doesn't stop there...yet)...then I considered you get my point of 'Respect each others lives'.

I'm focus with my life and am in my journey to be more Religious now.....so please, don't make me start over again!

Splash...Splash...!

Ola Cupcakes! Mommy miss you sooo...!!!

Working on this, working on that, occupied by this, occupied by that....ugh, very time-consuming and attention. But, I still can squeeze some of my energy to accompany Aisya on her school field trip to Atlantis Water Adventure - Ancol.

IT'S SPLASHING TIME....!!!!

It was such a relaxing time to see Aisya playing and having fun with her friends...and be surrounded with water, of course :p. What a moment to PAUSE from world.... ;)

I'll see you around sweet Cupcakes :*

When It's Time For....

....a sweet-peaceful-and-harmonious evening with Mommy's Angels (^^,).

Adorable.... :*

My Birthday Little Girl...!

10 Things I Know About Alicia.....the-little-girl-who-just-turned-4 in the clan ;p :

1. She can wear flip-flops correctly. No more right-and-left-mixed-up....(finally *sigh)

2. The Rebellious chick....well, she's a bit a 'my way' missy...but, the adorable one :)

3. She's the most often to get penalties and to get yelled at...(and Mommy always feel sorry afterward)

4. BUT, she's the first kid who will rub your back and kiss your forehead when you sick...awww :*

5. She plays with the hardcore way with her siblings...although she always takes one of her dolls everywhere.

6. She loves to hug while sleeping :)

7. It's so hard to get her tidy up! -_-'

8. Now she's excited to learn to wear her own clothes.

9. She has good stamina....but sometimes it's a minus point when turned to too active.

10. She's sweet...so sweet I couldn't stand not to cuddle her even when I'm furiously mad at her.

......

Oh, wish I could go on with the list...

This cutie...

Has grown into 

this Beautiful Angel :*

Happy Birthday my Dearest Alicia.......

Mommy will always by your side :*

QOTD

Biggest Simple Things

Hi Angels....

Almost everyday is a rainy day here....freezing....but Mommy's still survive ;)

Anyway, two days ago -at a family gathering- I had a nice conversation with my cousin-in-law, Dannii. This lovely lady owns an online Kebaya boutique which produce beautiful and elegant Kebaya. You can visit her online boutique at Inade Kebaya. Since both of us love to create something and sell it...(well, I'm thinking of selling it ;p), so the conversation went on things that we (really) passionate about. I really had so much fun, and miraculously, it became some kind of creative booster for me! AND, I also got introduced to one of her friend who also owns an online boutique and produce her own collection...how great! 

Oh, I'm so grateful with our last talks, Dear Dannii..... I had so much fun, I got new supplier for my shop, I get a creative booster, I even got a slight courage to try taking part on craft bazaar or such. Look what have you gave me, Dannii?! Alhamdulillah, who would expect great things comes from a humble and fun conversation.....I didn't ;)!

So, since I fully recharged, as soon as I got home I picked my hybernating-for-almost-two-months crochet project and said to it..."Don't worry beautiful, I'll finish you now".....

Well, Angels.....what is your biggest Simple thing?

Happy New Year 2013!

Happy Celebration, Dearest Angels...!!!

Good Luck ;)

2012 was...

...my most PASSIONATE year!

Of course, there were Ups and Downs...the Rollercoaster of Life. But Alhamdulillah, this year I really feel complete, focused, productive, and very much enjoying my life...to the fullest! :D

Ups :

my online Boutique :D

Downs :

My babies are my everything. They are my world, my dreams, my inspirations, my life....If something happened to them, it's like my world is taken away from me or like stripping off my soul from my body. And my very Low moments was when Agasha get Dehydrated and when we Lost him two days before New Year. Hopefully there won't be any terrifying moments happened in 2013 and the years after...Amin.

How is your Ups and Downs, Dear? Hopefully what we had in 2012 can be a good ammo to face what's await in 2013...Amin :)

I lost my Baby Boy

...Hugs my Angels sooo tight...

Oh my God, two days before New Year, and I've got a very VALUABLE lesson. I underlined the word 'very' because it was something that gave huge impact especially for me.

We were at the Mall, at a big Toys Shop, I was busy with Alicia and her Doll selections, everybody was busy with their...things. I was assuming that my baby boy was with one of us, and obviously everybody thought the same about him....that-somebody-is-keeping-an-eye-on-Agasha.....And the next thing we knew, we lost him!

Only God know how I felt, what was inside my head, how I running around searched for him with blurry vision, how trembling my hands was that is so difficult for me just to push a button on my cell phone so that I can show the security guard my baby's picture when reported of my missing child.........only God knows.

Then, when he asked me what outfit that my baby wears, and I answered "Jeans!", like he understand how dying I was he straight away told me to go to the Information booth on the Ground fl. immediately because it was already informed throughout the speaker (thank you Sir, may God Blessed you the rest of your life, Amin). Unexplainable how I could run that far and that fast with my plus size figure, but I do believe this is what you called a Mother Instinct. 

Alhamdulillah, I can hug my baby again. I kiss him, I hold him tight, I apologized to him over and over again....tears all over me. I cried of fear, I cried of relieved, I cried of regret, I cried of happy, I cried of everything. All I know, I have my baby back.......

It was a devastating moment in my life...the worst! God, please don't let me feel it again, I got the lesson.....yes, I surely do got the lesson! There was no blame put on someone's name. It was purely the Adults fault. My failure, as a parent....*sigh. ALWAYS make sure I know precisely about my children's supervision. NEVER think that someone will automatically keep an eye on my babies! Whatever it is, Parents responsible to their Children!

Mommy is holding you tight now my dear Agasha...

Kiss and hugs your Children everyday,every minute, every second, every breath of your life...please!

New Year Anxiety

Hi my Dearest Angels...Mommy's Sweetest Angels... :)

Here we are. Ready to let go a Year away...and ready to welcoming a Year to come. Time really does fly so fast. One second we are celebrating the coming of a brand New Year, new Dreams, new Wishes, new Hopes...the next second, we already preparing for another New Year...again! Sometimes, I don't even noticed what has had happened in this 12 passed months....how stunned!

You know, Dear...actually 12 months is quite a long time to passed. There are quite a lot of Time for some Actions, some Dramas, some Clean-ups, some Improvements, etc. BUT, in the end of the year, we always complaining of the same old crap : Not enough time!

Well.....do you think so? Do you think 365-days-of-Blessing are not enough? Do you think that 8,760 hours are not PLENTY enough to do something, let's say...Good ('Useful' is for the Intermediate level, if you know what I mean)??? Wow, something is definitely wrong here, and it is not about the time.

I used to be the person that said, "What!?! New Year again?! Darn! I even didn't got the chance to...". Oh yes, blamed it to the lack of time, blamed it to how short this year is, bla bla bla....But you know what, 365 days will always be 365-of-days...won't ever change, except for The Leap Year and it's only 1 extra day. So, the only thing that should be change is.....Me! Or you or we or whoever that person who is still feel that The Time Is Not Enough!

I've changed my mindset, set the arrow on me, and start to manage my plans for the year. And whatever happened in the end of the year, I can trace it down and know how to fix it. Alhamdulillah, now I can be so much easy facing the New Year's euphoria. We the one who knew our strenght, our capability, our passion...we the one who knew well of what we wanted and what we want NOT! So whatever you setting up or planning for the new upcoming year...please, consider all of that. And you have a List that is make sense...for you of course ;)

QOTD

Evening, Dearest Angels....

You know Angels, we always have that capability to be a better person. It's just a matter of whether we Willing to...or not. And if you are in doubts, you should read this....

QOTD

"Sometimes the Smallest everyday Moments 
Lead to the Biggest Discoveries"

-Creative Income Blog-

Into The Blues

Morning, Dear.....How are you guys doing? Hope everything is good and smooth ;)

I really really need some mood injection here, I mean like Super seriously need it! Well, nothing bad going on or something upsetting...nope, none. In the contrary, I'm in the process of losing weight --it's my 2nd week and I lose 2 kilos yeay for me-- and am about to start a shop...so I'm so exciteddd!

BUT, Mommy is over excited now Mommy is got overwhelmed with it. Yup, when you sooo excited of something, you had so much plans and ideas in your head...and suddenly you just don't know where to start and get anxious about all that...................Oopsy! That's exactly what had hit me on the last three days :( 

Seriously, I became grumpy and moody and felt like having an anxiety disorder...so low.

This morning, I said to your Daddy "I thing I'm on my lowest point of my mood level"....And your Dad just hug me and kiss me and gave me that 'Everything will be fine, Honey' rub in the back, and I feel oh soooo relieve... :)

Sometimes, all we need is just expressing what's in your heart and mind.....and releasing some of that heavy burden on your back. There is limit in every person.

Have a wonderful weekend my Sweet Lollipops..... I Love You guys :*

QOTD

Kindness is the language which the deaf can hear and the blind can see.

~ Mark Twain ~

To be a Beautiful Flower

Hi Angels.....How is it going? Hopefully everything is fine :)

Mommy doesn't know how old are you when you read this post, but I wanted to share it with you. When you grow up and started to know about Relationship, you must know that relation between two or more of people is not as easy as it seen...or heard.

...Oh, the topic is very touch-y, I'm kind of emotional right now imagining that I'm writing this to my grown up babies... *teary eyes*

Whether is a relationship with friends, colleagues, partners, lovers, or even with siblings. You must remember these two ground rules that Mommy told you...

First, it's a connection between two difference people. Two differences met up is not a-piece-of-cake matter.
Secondly....Never ever-ever never think --moreover try-- to change someone to be like you want them to be....NO NO!! It's a bad thoughts and it's a bad strategy...trust me! No one wants to be forced to change, won't you?!

"So, how-on-earth should we do to make it works, Mommy?". Okay, these are lessons-learnt that I get based on what I've been through ;). The first thing is you must know about your partner. Knows the good sides and the most important is the bad sides of him/her. Identified which differences between the two of you that have the potential to be a problem. Then asked yourself, DO you accept your partner along with his/her minus points? CAN you accept the differences between both of you?..............These two actions need to be done, I personally think so. Because then you know what you're going to be dealing with, you know what you must aware of, and hopefully you know how to react and what actions should be take (^^,)

No sweetpies, I'm not teaching you how to become a soldier ;p I'm just showing you that to have a relationship with someone is like growing a plant. You need to water it proportionally, give it a proportional light, give it a proportional fertilizer, clean it from weeds, and all the necessary care until it blooming and become the most beautiful flower you'll ever see....

......Pretty flower pairs isn't it?! As for a beautiful Relationship your tools are, Tolerance, Appreciation, Love, Care, Respect, Trust, and Commitment (^^,)


And a bunch of Mommy's Kisses to flower up your weekend..... ;* !

Rockytober

Hi Sweetpies....! Happy Halloween...!

First of all, from my deepest heart, my prays for Sandy Storm victims in America. It is the most powerful storm ever happened in US history, and that can definitely seen afterward. But I do believe that the people are tough and unbreakable, and together they'll united hand-in-hand to rebuild again. My faith with my friends there :D.

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So...what's goin' on with Mommy this month? There's only 3 posts on October? Well.....I'm still alive, that's for sure ;p . Just kidding Dear, Mommy was just preoccupied by couple of things. But, short conclusion is that October wasn't really my month...hopefully this year only, Amin.

Everybody has problems, big problems or small problems, you will always meet them on the way. And the best way to get rid of it is by facing it. Don't avoid it...don't run from it....you must FACE IT! If you avoid it or run from it and you'll think it's gone.....WRONG!!! You just walk away from it and trust me you'll meet your "old friend" again in no count of time. So, face the problem, find the solution for it, and make sure it bugging no more ;) ! 

Mommy is still here and will always be, don't worry ;).....and I will always watch you, love you, hug you, share with you :* #bunch of kisses

The Universe Will Hear

Whenever you feel upset, confused, and stuck...but you need an answer.

Take a moment to breath....then look around...closely.

Hear around...closely.

Absord around...deeply.

And you'll get the answer that you need ;)

September Rocks!

Hi Honey...! ;)

Yes, I love this month a lot! Mommy is a little bit over productive. There have been some hustle and bustle in the crafting area for the last two weeks as Mommy finally finished three crochet projects......yup, three....honey! Three crochet projects and...all DONE! And Nooo, this hot-y Momma is unstoppable about crafting as she already on her next project to make a Cover for sewing machine. But, bad news for me, there's something wrong with my sewing machine so I'm hand-sewing for this project. And of course I'll share the story and some pictures to you after it ready ;). Oh, another update, finally Mommy start to learn Knitting. Aside that I'm so excited about it, I found that Knitting is waaay harder than Crocheting. Well, I'm still working on it and am sure I'll get there somehow... ;)

So, I first started on the Poncho, since August to be exactly. I considered it as a big project, so there were some pausing just to keep me fresh. I'm using two yarns with the colour of Aisya's fave colours, pink and purple. It's Local cotton and I supposed the weight is Sport (but since I joined two yarns together it became Worsted), and using F hook.

The Result.....Ta Daaa....!

Second project is Pretty Hat. I made this cute one in between my paused working on Poncho. It's a lovely and easy pattern. And it's definitely becoming my favourite hat pattern. I was using a 100% wool Sport yarn in dark Pink and light Pink, and made this with G hook.

And for the last crochet project of this month, I made something for myself. Something to warm my neck and also can be accessories for the look. So I was making a lace-y-look Cowl. It's also a pretty and easy pattern, so it's also in my Favourite list in my Ravelry. The Cowl was made with local cotton Worsted yarns using a 4.00mm hook. I love it and use it every night when I'm doin' my stuff on the computer :).

   

Now I can break for a while from Crochet and start concentrating to practice my Knit lesson, and my sewing skill (especially on how to use a sewing machine ;p). I've made some list of both Knit and Sewing project that I am thrill to try to make! Like the Saying said..."Never stop Learning"....You too Honey, go on finding what you desire to learn, whatever that is (but stay on positive things, okay!). Learn it, try to make it, and reward yourself no matter good or bad the result is....the Reward is for the Process, okay Dear?!

ps : For the Poncho, Hat, and the Cowl patterns can be seen on my Ravelry :)

It Would Be Like This....

....My mobile would ring early in the morning, lets say...8.00 AM....

RIIIIING.......RIIIING......

Me : "Hello...."

Mom : "Are you awake already? What's the children doin'? Are they awake yet?"

Me : "Yes Mom, I'm awake...now. No Mom, the children are still sleeping...but I believe they will be soon"

Mom : "Are you coming today? You free today, right!?! Your 'lil brother is free today so what about lunch outside? Or why don't we visit Myscha? We haven't visited her since she outta hospital. Just get up and get ready, i'll picked you and the children!"

Me : "What!?! Mom, yes I'm free today but I don't want to be rushed for sho......"

- phone hung up -

Yup, that was typical my Mother....can not sit still, always wanted to do something or going somewhere. I used to be annoyed whenever I had no class she'll forced make me her driver and it'll take a whole.day! Where would we go, you ask? Everywhere! Take her to her medical treatments, or mall hopping, or friends gathering, or just visiting relatives....anywhere! Often times it made me very upset, because I barely had times to hang out with my friends. BUT, now I realised how much I miss her spontaneity........ (^^,)

Love you, Mother.... :*

Ain't No Stepford Wife

Hi Honey.....

How's your day, Dear...? (^^,)

I just did a little catch up on the newest post on childhood101 and read some old post when I nod and nod and nod to read this particular post :

Mum in the Hot Seat: Life is not meant to be picture perfect

Oh yes, sometimes I do forget that chaotic is includes in the package the time a baby is arrived in the house. No wonder I'm often times feel frustrated when every times I managed to make the room neat and second later the room looks like it has never been cleaned...guess I'm hoping something impossible (-_-').

Back on my single life, it was so easy for me to keep everything manageable and organize and neat, especially since I'm a perfectionist and organized person. So when babies start coming in, and then they start to walk and start on thinking that every stuff in the room could be some kind of entertaining, that is the time when I started to pull my hair off......As well as when I started to cut my hair short and start the 'everything is maxi' collection in my wardrobe, that's because my time is cut off for dressing up my children first. When it's time for me to dress up, it only enough to put on my lipbalm.....I repeat : just putting on my lipbalm!

So, when I read what had Kellie wrote, it takes me to remember again how often Aisya always said how beautiful I am when we were going out, even when I only wore my face powder and lip gloss. And how she loves to play beauty salon with me and pretending she shampooing my hair and then says, "I want my hair long like yours, Mommy"....Also, as far as I remember even though my house is not as neat as a Hotel room, it also doesn't required to be on The Clean House show either. Hence for that, I totally agree with Kellie that :

1. Beauty doesn't lie on how shiny my shoes are
2. The House doesn't have to be spotless ALL the time
3. Sometimes I need to let go (in my case, I need to be more flexible ;p)
4. It's the simple things in life that often brings the greatest joy... :)

If I may add another lesson that I learn from my children is....Don't forget to have FUN!